We are made of star stuff.
Hardly the mantra spoken by a yoga pants-stuffed personal trainer, am I right?
And yet, it has become one of the most pivotal, standalone sentences in my business to date.
Entering the fitness industry in 2016, I became disillusioned by the lack of discussion on mental wellbeing, self-improvement and overall wellbeing in all aspects of life - in favour of promoting unrealistic transformations and purely aesthetic results. It didn’t help that I work in the modelling and fashion industry, either.
Does improving body composition help improve mental wellbeing, confidence, and overall dutifulness?
Sure. Of course it does.
Looking good naked is certainly a driving factor in how and why we train - and it’d be naive of me to deny that. Many of my clients started with me “just to look good naked.”
But it’s not the sole emotional catchment area for progress and development. The thing that gets you out of bed to train and eat in a way that makes you feel better in all aspects of life.
And this is where I felt the industry had always been lacking.
I've always been a bookworm, fascinated with the universe. As a result, from a young age I eschewed playground politics for the warm mustiness of the local library.
I began expanding my reading. Suddenly realised Jane Austen was pretty cool. Also became worryingly addicted to Pokemon.
My brain became engorged, eager to learn more about philosophy, spirituality, and science.
I was instantly enthralled and mesmerised by the idea that we are all one - that we come from the same sky, stars, and cosmos that created us in such miraculous circumstances so long ago. It was with this that a sort of 'lightbulb' appeared right over my head. I realised how amazing we are - bursting full of light, potential, and power, we can empower ourselves physically and mentally to be the best versions of ourselves possibly.
When I got into fitness and modelling, following a spell of deep depression in 2011, I knew this is how I wanted to help people. To get them moving well, feeling amazing, and empowering their lifestyle in a way that was controllable.
I decided from then on to combine everything I learnt from these old books and esoteric thinkers, and transfer these life lessons and methods of self-mastery to help my clients.
Training is just the base of everything that we do, think, and feel.
All to say: a bad training session may indicate something deeper going on in your life. It’s the stress interfering with your one-rep max. It’s the anxiety making you struggle to perform movement with ease.
The more I coach people, the more I realise it's about combining the physical and mental health, as they both interweave with one another.
And that’s how I anchor my coaching. From the ground up. Working with messy, flesh bags of human stress and emotion and starstuff, not just moving bodies.
The Cosmic Movement seeks to incorporate a fully immersive experience to your fitness journey. To look at the “why” behind your journey, as well as promoting sports science, evidence-based training and nutrition, and human psychology.
To help you find a way not only to make your skeletal meat casing look pretty and shiny, but also you feel more empowered about life outside of the gym floor.
The nerdiest personal trainer you'll meet. Unashamedly.
Having grown disillusioned with both the fitness and modelling industry and their lack of substance, I decided to create a business model whereby clients can feel empowered by their choices based on deeper ideas and empowered methods of thinking.
It was through my own fitness and mental health journey that I realised the connection between the two is undeniable.
It’s my hope to create a brand that focused on empowering individuals with the tools in life to help them cope with the shit storm life can throw us.
That sudden bereavement.
That toxic break-up.
That sudden existential onslaught that hits you on your morning toilet visit. (This is where I get all my great philosophical ideas. So sue me.)
I’m not saying that lifting weights will save and change your life. Because it can’t.
Only we, as godforsaken, anxiety-laden Homo sapiens, have the capacity for that, truly.
But I'm also not going to say it has a place merely for aesthetic refinement.
If done well, fitness can act as a catalyst for change in all areas of living. It’s not the sole piece of the pie in self-development, but I'll be damned if it isn’t at the very least the sprinkle of cinnamon in overall happiness and wellbeing.
A few years ago, I went through a major depressive episode which placed me in the darkest place of my life yet.
I had always been a cerebrally-driven individual, so the idea of lifting heavy things and putting them back down seemed a bit…primitive. I was snobbish towards the idea, which I now scoff at lightheartedly.
How wrong I was.
(17-year old me was kind of a dick. And not even a whole person. I’d even wager saying I’m barely a whole person now.)
I realised then that there was such a stigma towards mental health and self-improvement. That wanting to improve yourself emotionally, mentally and spiritually was seen as woo-woo or a sign of weakness.
But Socrates didn't end up telling all those wise, wholesome stories for nothing.
There was clearly something to this self-mastery malarky. I just hadn't seen it before. Until I was in the bottom of the well, forced to climb back up.
Suddenly, Manic Pixie Dream Sophie backed down a bit. “Hey, maybe Camus’ The Myth of Sisyphus and my squat sets aren’t that different! Maybe, training and philosophy can teach people how to better their lives. Just through different means.”
(Given how absurd they feel - they genuinely aren’t tbh.)
It was then that my lightbulb moment came - I knew I wanted to try and help people become the versions of themselves they sought to be. By combining all that I learnt through academia, philosophy, psychology, spirituality and fitness itself, I felt I had found an ideal coaching role to help individuals feel better in themselves.
I created The Cosmic Movement in the hopes to raise awareness of mental health conversations, why philosophy is actually pretty fucking awesome, and how movement, nutrition, and overall self-mastery can be the foundation to taking huge leaps and bounds in your own life.
Work with me. Together we can explore this rich tapestry of cosmic curiosity the Universe has created.
Together we can help you see how your fitness journey can help transform your mind.